Hungry Panda

My Unrealistic Dreams

Hi all. I’m having insomnia again last night, and I guess I’m finally falling asleep at 5 A.M (after adzan). So now (12.30 P.M) I just woke up and feeling az dizzy az a brain could handle, and just staring at Ted with an empty-looks. I’m regaining my conciousness and decided to write down “My Unrealistic Dreams” before I continue my thesis.

Oh don’t you just love (night or day) dream(ing)?

In fact, I did have a very weird dream last night: I’m married to JOHNNY DEPP! Yes, THAT Johnny Depp! Idk why I have that dream, as I’m not such a big fan of Mr. Depp. But you can’t control dreams, right? Unless it’s a day-dreaming :]

So here’s the list of my recent day-dreaming:

#5 Get A Master Degree with Islam in Middle East as my spesification

My lecturer, Mas Sapta, said yesterday, to be “someone”, you have to be as “spesific” as you can. You can’t just be an IR graduates, as there’s another 2 million (or more) IR graduates in Indonesia.

Well, I always love to study about value. Religion to be exact. And Islam in Middle East is a very interesting subject for me. It’s not really impossible, actually. But I don’t think I have enough courage to pursue it :(

Maybe someday…

#4 Get A Master Degree with International Development as my spesification

I’m not really creative, even in day-dreams, am I? LOL. But it’s super true, I really wish to continue my study to get a master degree. But look at me now, tumblr-ing instead of working on my bachelor thesis!

I don’t think I will survive if I continue to master degree. Anyhow, I also think undeveloped, underdeveloped and developing countries as a very interesting subject. Come on, you can’t just do nothing while you always listen to… 2 million babies just died because of malnutrition… Nuclear war? Who cares! There are a lot of people around us waiting for our help. Ever check on your housemaid’s children? Do they have enough food? Do they go to school?

I’m more into low-politics rather than high-politics. Always have and always will.

#3 You

Ea. This is just too galau. Next, next!

#2 Have A Regular Sleep Time Like A Normal People

Does it sounds funny? Well, it’s not. Insomnia is a very serious problem and its screwing my schedule. Me no likey. I wish I have a “shut-down” button. Like a computer.

#1 To Be a Good Mother and Wife

I think I’m born in a wrong era. I supposed to born in 1900’s where a girl is married at the age of 15. I’m not such a feminist and independent kind of girl. To build a happy family is my ultimate dream. Probably since I was a little girl.

I keep thinking on how should I teach my children. And their names.. And how many dogs I will have.. Etc etc.

Yes, it’s embarrasing! But its true, this is my simple yet ultimate dream. And I will definitely make it comes true. Because I’m not good being single, I’m good at being in relationship. I’m good at taking care of people. And I’m an excellent hugger! *selfpromote

But there’s still no sign of my future-husband yet :P

Yea, this post will never help me to get a boyfriend. They will run away for sure after reading the word “marriage”.

Look, I didn’t mean to marry my next boyfriend right-away. I want to pursue master degree, also my career. So I’m just sharing my dreams! *anotherselfpromote

Well, that’s all my recent day-dreams. It will change, for sure (except dream #1). But it’s okay. Dreaming is free, and it keeps ignorance away. So I will post more things like this in the future. Hope you don’t mind :)

Panda cheers!